Got a job already

It's Water and Stone, the third IT company I will be working with. Actually I've been interviewed there 2 years ago, in 2007. But since I applied in new position I never had skills before, I failed. This time I passed with no sweat. It's Web Content Manager. Doing SEO, editing stuff, some online marketing, HTML and uploading.

Couple of times I tried to find "woman-jobs" such as Secretary, Office Manager, Personal Assistant and Sales Manager. But I failed all. I know I don't have skill and experience on these positions, but many times when I was doing the IT things, I feel bored.

I didn't have IT bachelor degree, instead it's English teacher's. But since I graduated from university, I always worked in IT field. Always. I never imagined working in this area. Many times I think that life has a strange way to drag me into this point. It's not that I'm not grateful but it will be good for me to have various skill so I can survive when it's needed.

Let's just go through it!

De Ja Vu

4 years ago in December 2005 ( i can't believe its already 2009 now, how time passes by so quickly) company where i worked as a Web Content Editor for more than 3 years got bankrupt. 14 employees were sent home with a good resignation package.

2 years ago in April 2007, again another company where i worked as an SEO specialist for 7 months closed down. another acceptable resignation package.

2 weeks ago in February 3rd 2009, (*deep sigh) company where i worked as a Web Marketing and Supervisor for 1.8 years suffered a tremendous loss. more than 50 people were sent home. i received a quite good compensation.

ironic, huh!
i don't know whether i should laugh, or sad. because there's nothing to laugh for, or sad of. it's no body's fault. the wheel of life is rolling now.

February 3, 2009

Owner of the company where I worked for 1.8 months in a one fine Tuesday held a meeting with all staffs. He announced: "company will be merged to headquarters and all employees will be given a good-bye package. not all of you will join the new one."

and so here I am. browsing for jobs everyday.
getting fired again for 3 or maybe... 4 times?

At last

--1--
are you going to be married?
who?
you
really? who?
you!

--2--
yes, i'm going to be married next month
why didn't you tell me before? why hurry?

--3--
can we still be friend?
not with a married man, not you

--4--
do you still in bali?
why?
i will go there
so?
nothing
why didn't you tell me you were going.. and now already being married?!!


NOW
i'm so confused. it's still here. and real.

Love is not going to wait for you

as far as i acknowledge, there were 2 guys having crush on me. years gone by. i felt a bit honored that they, at least one of them admitted it to me, that he's been waiting for me since 6 years ago. but i was never there long, and they never here at all.

just before the end of 2008, i heard one of them is getting married this january. the one i deeply loved a long time ago. i congratulated him and deleted his number from my mobile. and now the other one is barely contacting me. he is online everyday at yahoo messenger, but we rarely say hi. there was no conflict, no nothing. it's just faded away.

i am sad. i fell that i lose something. its like beatiful pieces of my past is gone.
i know i must be realistic. they phoned me thousand of hours, they were willing to pay the airline tickets. but why i didn't choose them, is an undeniable reason. simply because...."they never here at all". they never visited me. i believe, if you really love someone, you will cross the sea just to see her smile. i did. i came to them.

and so it went by. now i'm here with someone really cherish me. i'm not going to wait for anybody else. and no one is expecting me also.

3 Things You Love About Me

Guys and gals,

abis yg jelek2, now please list 3 things i do and say that suits you and make you think.."wow, this girl is cool". jgn merasa terpaksa. consider this is a a good deed for you, a ticket for you to enter Heaven. huahahaha... thanks again for participation.

3 Things You Hate About Me

Friends,

in this new year, i have personality resolution. and that is.. i want to be a better person.
so please write down 3 things you don't like about me; the way i think, speak and behave.
consider this as the opportunity for you to say anything about me without me being angry to you.

hehe.. thanks ya

I become an Auntie

4 days before Ramadhan 2008 my sister bore her first baby, also first grandchild to my parents. A female baby, weight almost 4 Kg. I was home just to see my niece. Her name is Airin. She's so much like her father.

Lho kan tadi sudah, pak?

Selasa, 9 Des'08, 12 siang

kriiinngg...
"ya halo" ( ngantuk). "mariza?" "betul, ini siapa?" "saya malik dari discovery plaza. saya tunggu, bukannya ada interview jam 9 pagi tadi?" "lho, kan tadi sudah, pak" "mariza ketemu siapa, dimana?" "widya, pak. HRD, di lt.2" "discovery plaza HOTEL?" "hah? hotel??. waduh saya tadi ke kartika plaza mall, pak" "kok bisa? ok saya tunggu sampai jam 1" "makasih, pak"

Selasa, 9 Des '08, 9 pagi

"permisi, saya ada janji interview." si receptionist lsg menyuruhku ke lt.2 bertemu lsg dgn HRD. "pagi, saya mariza, ada janji interview" "dgn siapa, mbak?" "waduh, saya lupa namanya. pak manik gitu kl g salah" "disini g ada. pak andik mungkin. CV sudah dikirim?" "sudah, bu. saya kirim mg lalu lewat email waktu apply" "kok ga da ya. y dah, sy interview saja".... stlh bbrp menit. "ok, mariza. kebetulan kami akan membuka divisi website. krn CV tidak ada, ntar bsk kl mariza ke mall sini lagi, tlg dikasih ke receptionist ya." "terima kasih, bu"

Minggu, 7 Des '08, 3 sore

aku dan anton jalan2 ke kartika plaza atau discovery mall. menikmati pemandangan offshore dari sebuah resto sambil menikmati es krim banana split. 1 jam kemudian stlh puas menikmati suasana tepi pantai, kami berjalan menuju parkiran. karena ada satpam, aku berpikir u/ sekalian tanya. "permisi, pak. ini betul kartika plaza, kan? karena saya ada panggilan intview dgn HRD selasa besok" "oh betul, bu. lsg saja nanti ke lt.2"

Jumat, 5 Des' 08, 5 sore

kriiinggg..
"halo, siapa ini?" "dengan mariza saraswati?" "betul, ini siapa?" " saya @#$%^ma&*ik dari discovery plaza *(^%#@" "oh iya, kenapa pak" "mariza, ada melamar kesini. bisa datang interview selasa jam 9 pagi?" " oh iya. makasih, pak. saya akan datang." (sialan. tadi yg nelp siapa ya? kartika plaza apa ya. hotel ato mall? malu juga nanya trus, ntar dikira budeg lagi.)


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kesimpulan:

1. dlm sehari, interview bisa dilakukan minimal sebyk 2x. jd jgn lelah mengirimkan lamaran pekerjaan ya!
2. percayalah dirimu sendiri sblm percaya org lain. apalagi Satpam!!
3. jangan malu mengakui kalau kamu budeg. Malu Bertanya, Sesat di Ruang HRD!!

Kengerian

beberapa hari ini aku ketakutan. dgn adanya berita rabies, yang akhirnya dikonfirmasi positif ditemukan di ungasan, aku saking kuatirnya sampe tgnku merinding. gimana dengan anjingku? dia terbiasa kulepas sdiri u/ jln2. kl spt ini, artinya aku hrs ikat dia dikmr kosan trus menerus. dan bawa dia jalan cuma pagi dan mlm. itupun penuh perjuangan krn dia g mau dipaksa dan sbntr aja. kl dilepas, dia akan plg2 sdiri di waktu singkat. aku kasihan, tp aku g mau ambil resiko.

banyak anjing liar di bali dan sekitar kosan. rabies menular lewat air liur sekalipun. dan efeknya mematikan. dolie punya sifat dasar galak. aku pernah digigit juga pas maksa dia masuk kamar. aku kuatir bgt dia akan gigit org lain, dan disangka rabies/atopun bener terjangkit rabies. aku jg kuatir mungkin aku jadi carrier, yg akhirnya nularin dolie, adikku, pcrku ato org lain. pemerintah dah menginstruksikan u/ memusnahkan anjing2 liar di jalanan atopun anjing peliharaan yg kemungkinan terjangkit rabies.



waktu dia berumur blm genap 1 bln, aku pernah sekali ketakutan. waktu itu sedang musim distemper. byk anjing mati kena virus mematikan itu. sedang dia blm cukup umur u/ divaksin. akhirnya stlh 1 bln, aku bawa dia ke dokter u/ vaksin dan imunisasi lengkap yaitu parvo, lepto, hepatitis, distemper dan cacing. sedang u/ vaksin rabies tidak ada di bali dan tidak akan diberikan, karena bali adalah rabies-free. tapi sekarang??? aku telp klinik dah 5x. dan yg terakhir aku meninggalkan no telpku u/ dikabari begitu vaksin sudah ada. sementara itu, aku sangat sangat tidak tenang. aku g mau kehilangan anjingku lagi. GOD, I'M SO SCARED