satu persatu kuimpikan kalian, kekasihku

starting 3 months ago, aku mulai memimpikan mereka yg pernah terlibat romance denganku. each time i woke up with ecstasy. i felt something i thought i've lost it. passion.

last night it was my first love. Erik. anak berandal berambut ikal, kulit bersih kuning langsat, tinggi, gigi putih, mata jernih, bangir, bibir merah, baik ke anak kecil, sopan ke orang tua. sayang, saat itu aku masih Smp dan dia Sma. sayang, dia g suka aku. hehehe... to him, i was only a baby-girl.

but it's all in dreams only. i don't dare to have those in my real life. not again. not when i'm with him. tho i want to sometimes.

hi..

hello
what are u doing
where are you
at home
i want..
really?
don't. me too
when?
when we meet
is there no one?
..you
you?
some..
safe?
no
you must
well.. once there's..
then?
yea..
hmm.. me too
really? shouldn't
and who!!?
..
see u then

Pleasure vs Happiness

membedakan antara kesenangan dan kebahagiaan.
is it a matter of period of time?

if it's short then it must be pleasure.
if it's for a long time, then it's got to be a happiness.

true?

short = lust?, long = desire?
how will i differentiate them? don't i deserve my happiness since it's started from small thing?

now i want it. there's someone i want. and he wants it too. should i?
but i made my promises. could i?
small fun will sometimes destroy happiness. but i will surely be happy if i have fun.

So?

Friend of a friend.

I like you. But I've chosen someone.