Suddenly at 9 am on Monday i got sad news that my friend's baby has passed away. She was just 2 months old beautiful baby. she was their first child. i went to their house with the other friends right away. it was all men there. so i went inside to meet his wife who i don't know much. not knowing what to say, i hugged her and rubbed her hair. hoping that keeping her in conversation will make her not cry for temporary, i asked and said few things delicately. then i stepped outside to meet my friend, the father. he said that he couldn't believe it. they were playing with the baby the other morning and she suddenly got fever.. and the next few hours..died. at hospital.
Death is everywhere. i mean it happens so naturally, so quick, and no exception. Before, on Sunday me, anton and ciko went to vet clinic for ciko having his 3rd vaccine. we wait outside the doctor's room who was examining a big white dog -seemed like kintamani- covered in a thick blanket. Then the dog brought outside to its owner car. while i thought that the dog was heavily sick, its actually dead. The clinic staff said that the doctor had'nt done anything yet when it's brought inside and died.
Back to my friend's baby. This morning the baby was cremated since they are Chinese family. When i was with the mother on the first day, i was going to tell my experience too. How my grandparents died and i wasn't there; when my dogs died and i was so sorry not there again. Feels like they had been kidnapped from me; feels that your heart had been taken away just like that. How i think that it's what is called Death, and like it or not, we must accept. And how i curse death. But i held my tongue cause i didn't think its the right time to say. Well... Nothing to say then.
