as far as i acknowledge, there were 2 guys having crush on me. years gone by. i felt a bit honored that they, at least one of them admitted it to me, that he's been waiting for me since 6 years ago. but i was never there long, and they never here at all.
just before the end of 2008, i heard one of them is getting married this january. the one i deeply loved a long time ago. i congratulated him and deleted his number from my mobile. and now the other one is barely contacting me. he is online everyday at yahoo messenger, but we rarely say hi. there was no conflict, no nothing. it's just faded away.
i am sad. i fell that i lose something. its like beatiful pieces of my past is gone.
i know i must be realistic. they phoned me thousand of hours, they were willing to pay the airline tickets. but why i didn't choose them, is an undeniable reason. simply because...."they never here at all". they never visited me. i believe, if you really love someone, you will cross the sea just to see her smile. i did. i came to them.
and so it went by. now i'm here with someone really cherish me. i'm not going to wait for anybody else. and no one is expecting me also.
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