I'm going to say it.

I will do it, sooner or later. Knowing that the risk is going to be tremendous. Best or worse to come. I must find God first. The rest will follow. Pray God will give us courage, wisdom, passion, and hope to bring all subjects, discuss and find the win-win solutions. I know this will hurt him fiercely. But relationship is about a mutual feeling. I just have to find the perfect time, though there will never be one.