I still see you

Dreams are there to remind me for good memories once i had with you, as well as the bad. I can visualize you clearly. As if you are still here with me now. I can smell your odor, feel your hairs, hips and neck. As if i can just like that grab you to kiss and hug you.

It was always a strange dream. You were there but i couldn't catch you. In another dream where i couldn't see you, i felt your presence strongly that it left me a misery to recognize the agony. Is it because i miss you that much? YES.. YES, i miss you so much, dear.

If there's 1 thing in the world that makes me sad the most.. is longing you.
If there's 1 thing in the world that bring me tears.. is thinking of you.
If there's 1 thing in the world that frozen my lips.. is saying your name.

Do you ever forgive me? Do you ever think of me?
I can't let you go, till now. May God keep you in His arm.

Dah kerja lagi, kok.

Senin out. Senin in.
God is very good to His people.
Aku dah kerja di Exotiq Management. It gives service on Villa Holidays di Bali. ini websitenya http://www.exotiqvillaholidays.com

Senin apply. Rabu interview. Jumat ketrima. Senin kerja.
I'm so happy. I want to give His blessing to others too.

Emang gaji lebih rendah. Emang building lebih kecil. Emang pegawai lebih dikit.
TAPII...

Aku dapet full authorisasi on my job. Aku dapet hape. Aku dapet raise. Aku dapet a better career. Aku dapet bos yang baik. Aku boleh bawa hape, cd, headset dan bisa telp keluar.

Disini aku jadi web marketer. Aku punya plan2 internet marketing untuk companyku. Kl sesuai jadwal terlaksana, ini akan jadi my fix career. At last!

This is gonna be my pilot project.

Get fired. again.

Wekekekekekk...
(niru ketawa nasrul)

I dunno how to call my-not-being-work-again in GMSI. Is it fired or.. It just that they dont extend my contract that ends next monday, July 9.

Well.. merely because i walked out HRD room with rage and slammed the door, leaving the HRD manager yelling at me.

How?? Dated June 18 at 14.00 am. I was having a diarrhea that morning, taking 5 pills to eased my pain and stopped the xxxx. Had called the other manager (since my manager was absence) that i would come late to office. Felt better i came at 12.30 (half day yes). At 13.45 i filled in an office form stated that i come late that day and must be signed by HRD. So i walked in his room just to be asked to leave the office since its too late to work. WHAT THE FU**?! I debated him that i had phoned before 9, had come and able to work. Why should i disadvantaged company more by resting all day, but actually i could work anyway? I told him that my doctor is quite far and by the time i examined myself that nite, i would be ok. So why should i get a doctor letter? I had come to office meaning that i'm ready to work. (and why didn't he phoned me not to work, instead of waiting me coming to his room, at anytime??) Nearly 30 mins and out of my brain, i stood up and said " ok, then, i'll be home and get that doctor letter!". He called me and since i directly walked out without even minding to look back, he screamed " so you aren't really sick, huh?!"

Yesterday, monday 9 am i got that First Warning Letter. It happened that my doctor letter was rejected and i was assumed to be absence without notice. SH**! why now? why didnt he tell me that day? I protested to my manager and explained what really happened. They had meeting that noon and in the afternoon my manager said that it was finale and unnegotiable. OK. I will talk to HRD myself. and you know what? that bastard said to my manager that he didnt want to discuss it again, and bother to speak with me. FU** i told my manager that since June 18 he didnt even say a single word with me. coward! i thought that it was over and settled. DAM*!

at 5.15 i went down to go home and being stopped by manager to go to his room. He told me that my contract is not going to be extended. (early that morning he said that SP letter is bad for my appraisal but its ok. I must continue to work harder) so, what does it mean?

oh well.. PHK is not something new for me.
I just surprised that how come a mature person (above 40) could act childish and rude to others. He uses his power to eliminate those who "hurt" him.

Here i am. Jobless again. hehehe..

Musuh-musuhku

Hari ini aku dikalahkan musuh-musuhku.
aku terbawa emosi.
itu kelemahanku.

Tapi aku akan belajar.
lebih kuat. kendali diri. taktis.

Aku yakin mereka tertawa sekarang.
OK. kutelan harga diriku.
kubiarkan aku dipermalukan.

Tapi cukup hari ini saja.
Tidak besok. tidak lagi.
meski aku belum bisa membalas
Akan kutunjukkan bahwa aku tetap tegak dan tertawa.

Bulan Madu Bali

last nite






ipoel, nasrul, anton n me. we gathered in nasrul's room. talking craps. ipoel just recently wed, so that the issue of bulan madu came. since we live in bali suddenly i had this idea.
"guys.. why dont we make a competition? using keyword BULAN MADU BALI. let's see who gets the highest google.co.id rank for the next 10 days. the winner will be bought a new domain."
"lets do it" (said nasrul n ipoel. 3 of us are skilled in SEO, work in same office).

if you wonder why we choose the 3 words > bulan madu bali instead of just bulan madu or bulanmadu? its merely Search Engine Optimization calculations. its hard to compete bali, or just bulan madu on the net. there's a LOT of competitors. If you dont believe me, just enter the words into the google search box on this blog. Look at the result. And why google.co.id? again it will narrowed the search (local) and difficulties, rather than have it in google.com. hehe..

so, gals. please help me!

how?
1. by clicking bulan madu bali
2. by placing http://benangruwet.blogspot.com/2007/06/bulan-madu-bali.html
in your website/blog (just copy the url and paste it in your blog/article/comment etc)
ps: ipoel.. hadiahnya stick to the plan. domain aja. bukan paket bulan madu bali, ocret?

Gara-gara Bulan Madu Bali

hari ini aku blank. ngantuk. g bs mikir apapun.
kerjaan cuma ngecek'in web position di google co id untuk keyword bulan madu bali. masalah kenapa co.id ato kata2 bulan madu bali, bukannya bulanmadu bali ato bali bulan madu, semuanya dah kubahas di post sblmnya.

kusearch lewat pc'ku, http://benangruwet.blogspot.com stabil di posisi 6, sementara 2 pesaing nasruldev dan baliidea main gondal-gandul alias naik turun seenak udelnya.

tp hasil pencarian untuk kata kunci yg sama yaitu "bulan madu bali" (kl g pcya, klik aja) di komputer ipoel dan nasrul kok beda. aku ada di halaman kedua (tp tetep aja yg tertinggi dan mereka jauuuh dibawahku. hohoho..)

akhirnya kudpt jawabannya:
http://www.ragepank.com/articles/95/regional-search-results-always-different/
http://www.webmasterworld.com/google_adwords/3358375.htm

dah tau kenapa??

old posts- lama

for older posts, click here
untuk postingan bulan2 n tahun sblmnya , klik sini ya

follow the archive and month backward. bacanya ntar mundur ke bln2 sblmnya ya. kl maju, dah ganti ke postingan ttg kerjaan semua.

http://benangruwet.blogspot.com/2007_05_01_archive.html