Being 30

When i was off the pc, i had so many things in my mind to write down in this blog. But when i already here, i forgot it all. I will try to memorize and type some that i still recall.

• yesterday was my 30th birthday. its nothing to me. just another number. i can feel 17 or 45 anytime my mood brings me to.
• yesterday morning when i drove out of gang melati, i found that the stray dog nearby i saw couple of times before, had already died, laid in a grass. guess he died at night/dawn. he looked peaceful. i'm happy for him. this is odd. but maybe deep in my heart i know that he's been suffering a lot when he was alive. no master, no home, no food, bad skin disease. my mind kept wandering about my Ciko and Dolie.
• last week before Nyepi, on the way home from office around 7 pm, i felt so tired of life and questioned my presence. been hundreds of time.
• planned going home to Sby on Nyepi (Mar 25), got my hair highlighted, bought new shirts and digicam. met all friends there.
  
• i was so excited going to Singapore on April 8. got me headache thinking about it a looott...

these are all i can remember now. i'm sure there were many things else. but i couldn't.
is it because of age? haha.. maybe. i'm short-minded anyway.